Look at the stars. dont you feel the joy of heaven on earth?♥

Tuesday, November 4 8:29 PMl

Look at the stars. Feel the joy♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MS
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!!

HAHA.. may all your wishes come true!!

Hope you like the presents from us and the bday msg and the bday cake surprise and the e-card and the list goes on...........

Just hope u had an ENJOYABLE bday today..

yes, a special baby was born on 4th nov.. and whose that? "MUAH" ( inside joke)

I know you love us too cos we gave u a nice nice bday surprise this yr.. heehee..

God bless you with everything you can have, wanna have and dun have.. ( well, excluding the negative things).

My words speak volumes huh? thanks for your compliment.. haha..

With love,
Alina

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Tuesday, June 17 1:32 PMl

Look at the stars. Feel the joy♥

Thought of the day:

in life, there are ups and downs.. you fail but will eventually succeed if you perservere on...

but, can everybody be so strong that they can perservere after they fail by themselves?

we often meet ppl who help us up when we fall.. they give us moral support, courage and encourage us to stand up again... this ppl are considered "angels" in some way or other... or maybe.. "saints that god sent".... if u are christian/catholic...

this ppl can be your friends, enemies, teachers, parents, peers, schoolmates.. almost anybody can be your "saint"..

the help they give us, the time that they are willing to put in for us are valuable.. something that most of us will remember even after a long time..

when we are down, they comfort you..
when we are happy, they shall your joy...

BUT....

when THEY are down, what do we do for them?
Do we feel for them?

Most ppl only wants the attention of others and dont care about others' feelings..I admit i am one of them.. nobody's perfect.. but are we willing to change?

YOU can be an "saint" to someone else too.. if you are willing to put in the effort and time...

so NOW, let's think through, and spare a thought for those around you..esp for those that have helped you in your life in a way or other..Sometimes, a small but sincere thank you is enough.. but its always good if we can offer them something of equal value in return.. It's nvr bad to just show gratitude.. let the ppl around you know that u do appreciate their efforts today........

MY Story

when i performed badly for my mid-autumn celebration.. she said:
it truly wasn't your fault. It was because of wrong cues and the shock you had... Don't blame yourself... Don't be too hard on yourself ok? There is the saying that Rome was not built in a day. So you cannot expect yourself to be perfect ok? Remember the other performances which you did? They were good. It's just this one only... Hugz...

Don't think too much about it. Every failure is a stepping stone to success. You may have heard this before, and well, it's true if you don't give up and are not discouraged. Instead, you got to form a layer of thick skin and recover from this with lessons gained... Take care ok?

when i said i was disappointed that she couldnt come to watch us at the finals becos she said she could make it at 1st.. she said:
Don't feel so disappointed ok? I apologise but there was this big rumour that the briefing had shifted to this friday but the rumour wasn't true...

when i was choosing the song to play:
Haha... Wah such a high post ah? Thank you, thank you but got really big boots to fill...so pressurising... Haha... Choose a korean song? One of your favourite songs? How's that? :-)

when i was not very happy with my good friends:

You looked a bit sad. Don't think so much ok? Just be yourself. Extend your hand of friendship to others and so long as you care for others, it's them who is at the losing end. Your reaction was mature.

when i help her buy food:

Thanks. It's really sweet of you... Well, i say thanks because u r appreciated. Your generosity n kindness is what i'm grateful for.

when we fell out with each other..

I'm not angry with you. Just think that we have misunderstood each other. It's been an emotional day for you.

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Sunday, June 8 6:46 PMl

Look at the stars. Feel the joy♥

To you know who you are....

THANKS FOR THAT NIGHT! really felt so much better after msging you.. :)

I wonder....

one day when i leave,
will we still be in touch?
Will i still be able to tell u my sorrows
share the happiness of yours?
I wonder.

ten years down the road,
Will WE still be in touch?
Will i still remember you,
and all the laughter you have given me?
I wonder.

If i am able to choose again,
I will definitely
choose to know you once more.
I will definitely make our memories,
more of joy than sorrows.

But, thinking of it.
Sorrows
have made us know each other more
Have given us the chance to comfort each other
Have given us joy as a result.
thus, i thank you for all.

I wonder
if all this memories will last
but hey, in my life
you played a great part.

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Wednesday, May 28 5:02 PMl

Look at the stars. Feel the joy♥

Sun
hmm, today no music.. cos tmw o levels.. but i didnt really study.. lol.. then i was like slackin throughout...msged liyin about her dpa thing.. then received a reply from Khang Leng.. heh.. she say she will check for me.. omg, tjco blog that love suite played by HKCO is damn nice... then receive msg from Mr Sim. saying to meet after exam tmw.. then msged queenie awhile and stop... then msg jordan.. about yangqin the notes and stuff.. and khang leng msged again.. and say that most prob they will be playing this symphony no. 2 for chinese orchestra.. then asked jordan about it and he say got no yangqin in that song.. and he say he dunno how to change rubber and strings.. lol.. then was watching the charity show.. okay lah.. so-so only. then msg MS to remb to put the letter in the pigeon hole.. help my bro clear my cam from 10-10.35pm..and slept...

Mon
omg, woke up at like 4... cos of my bro..they all woke up.. then tried sleeping back but not that successful.. maid was like on-ing the lights here and there..then called dad at 6.. to asked about my IC.. and then wash-up and tried going back to sleep again.. just closed my eyes.. and then dad came at 7.15am.then school.
O Level Chinese!
okay, so i went sch and i went to buy coffee cos i was really sleepy...and i stupidly told the uncle i dont want sugar or milk.. then he just added abit of sugar.. then drank it in the foyer..while reading the bao zhang book once more.. then went toilet with saman and washed my face.. then went up..then.... i got rashes.. stupid. liyin say my skin like coming out le. LOL...then went in. with everything.. then did gong han for 40 mins before starting on bao zhang.. this bangla person was like omg.. then smell chicken rice suddenly.. came out.. realise bao se is newpaper publisher and i actually wrote wrongly! then went for break outside the hall and went for paper 2... okay, zong he tian kong wasnt that bad.. and then when it was 1215.. the person say 15more mins.. and got like 3 more compre questions.. then lucky can finish..then came out and compare answers.. then went for music... did some jap stuff.. fun then maths in foyer with saman, yating and liyin. then left for liyin's house.. came here, did my TJC application..and then did abit of lit before going back... at 6.30pm.. then study lit and did maths.. and slept..

Tues
Today had emaths paper 1 and lit... emaths was okay la... not that bad i suppose... though it's kinda difficult...during the break we were all in the foyer studying lit... samantha actually had a question we were trying to solve.. about BOO Radley, the knife and switchblade...then had lit.. miss L was like looking at us throughout the paper... did the question on Boo... started with the courage question though...and did unseen prose.. didnt really understand it! then after exams.. went down with yiusi to wait for her dad.. and look for miss S for my testi...and then she say she sent to TJC alr... then yiusi went home and i went foyer to "study" bio while waiting for yating and samantha..then saw miss S.. 1st reaction was how was the test? What question you do? Wait, let me guess.. a, b... A? and so i didnt really got the chance to talk la..and i was like erm.. i did A 1st then change to B.. and she was like.. oh okay, you dont look like you will do C... and i said... i never do passage-based questions one..and she was like okay.. then she was saying about it when miss L came.. and this convo went on:

S: hi! have you gotten the papers to mark?
L:oh, i am not marking paper 1..
S:okay. you have the timetable?
L:yup, but it's not with me now....
S:okay, do i have one?
L:yup mus get from mrs N. omg, can u imagine i was there for 2 hours?
S:where?
L:Hall. Cos i had to start and end the paper.
ME: yeah and she was like looking at all the students
L:ya, then what you want me to do?
Me: er okay.
L:hey, have you eaten lunch?
S:nope.
L:do u want go for lunch?
S:*thinks* okay.
L:Let's go parkway?we can cab there and have a quick one then you can come back here later
S:okay. you give me 5 mins?
L:okay. i will go find the aunty 1st. need to pass her these.
S:okay, so we will meet back here later..

5 mins later.........

*S comes out of SR. stands at the door. Looks right...

Me: she havent...(meanwhile, looks left)
S: OH
L:OH.so funny. like cartoon character like dat...
S:haha ya. let's go..
L:okay.. you know what, i want to eat parkway the ramen..
S:haha okay...
S: Bye!

then, somebody called my name and yeah, it was saman and yating.. and saman was like.. everybody's going off in pairs.then we walked out too..supposedly going to opp sch to eat... saw them walking to the busstop.. then me, sam and yating had a convo..

S: Where are they going?
A: they going parkway to have lunch..they gonna cab there.
Y: okay... so shiok ah.
S: then why they walking to the busstop the direction?
A: maybe they go out take cab or maybe change plan la..
S: doesn't really make sense..
A: they coming back later i think...
S: then what for go there... so free ah.
A: no la.. u know why...
S: why?
A:cos L wants to eat parkway the ramen...
S and Y: OH! it's nice!.
A:er okay... ( thinking maybe we should go there ah?)
Y: Let's got there and eat la?
S: eh, i dont mind leh..
A and Y: okay! then let's go..

and we walked off happily to the busstop near 7 11... took a bus to parkway and when we reached.. as we were walking to parkway.. at the durian shop, we saw the 2 of them..wanted to scare them... so i walked behind the 2 of them.. and then miss L saw me.. so i tapped miss S shoulder..and she turned around and said hi...

then samantha and yating started asking miss L why she set the paper so hard.. the both of them was like no ah.. the unseen was okay what..then she was like asking me which one i did and i was like unseen prose? and then they were buying durian la.. so after that while walking to cross the road... yating was saying the reason why she nvr do prose is cos it looks long... and miss L was like.. miss S, u know what... next time prelims rght, i m gonna set both prose and poem to be 2 page long...... and then we went off... ate at food court.. i bought food from hawker centre though.. chicken rice.. suppose to be beef noodles but it was close.. then after lunch i went hawker centre and saw my dad...and he gave me $20 to buy my CDs... took a long time choosing.. before finally settling on joanna wang and jeff chang's cd.. then went up to parkway tuition centre...studied bio and maths there with yating and saman.. dad called to say he was buying donut then.. and decided to buy for everyone... actually fixed the player in the tuition centre.. and while studying.. we listened to joanna's CD like 4 times?

then left at 4.30pm.. suppose to be 4pm but cos raining.. then yating was v nice.. we borrowed umbrella.. she sheltered me across and she herself after returning the umbrella, ran across.. in the rain.. thanks friend! while waiting for her to be back.. this uncle was like sit la.. u how old? oh, so u graduating this yr? then we went to busstop.. which was like no difference from no shelter places.. the rain was practically coming in.,.and i put my yangqin stick and DSA Folder in yating's bag before going to busstop to prevent it from getting wet.. then on the bus.. saw that yating was really wet! feel so bad.. she's all wet.. and my shoe was like soak too.. then at the busstop.. called grandma to come down with umbrella for me... then did my DSA application.. and then went for tuition and went home... practiced yangqin! did application... which was still undone.. then studied bio...and then cos of the donut..had a fight with dad...he was so demoralising! we fought like shouting... mum and grandma sort of help me... mum got scolded too...then i studied till 12.30am..msging huixian.. she consoled me la.. thanks friend! and she said she gonna sleep at 1am... she have been studying for very long le leh... but nvm.. then i slept la..

Weds
TJC-DSA Today!
Today went sch at about 7.30am.. virina was like hi, what did u do ytr? and i was like study? oh okay, what time u study until? and i said 12.30am? i was still msging huixian what.. and she was like oh.. okay no wonder u have such big eye bags.. was like thanks ah..had emaths paper...omg, the paper right was so....... got 10 question.. then qn 1-5 was can do.. and i thought like oh okay.. quite easy mah.. then qn 6-10 was like cannot do! circles and stuff.. then i totally forgot to study box and whisker.. so just agar agar do la... then had donut outside hall.. secretly la...me, virina, saman and yating was eating.. then they were studying bio which i had not much idea of.. went into exam hall... and i didnt know how to do the paper la.. so just stone..

then after exams, i went CO room with queenie.. took out yangqin to practice.. then brought donuts down for liyin and huixian.. surprisingly, huixian took the double chocolate one... then practice and CO ppl came.. they were like staring at me... and i felt so weird.. every time i start playing.. there will be ppl looking.. then i left for foyer... saw MS and so she was like did u msg me just now.. was like ya..and she saw.. then she say where's the CO room? and i suppose to go there to get my donut? Was like no need la.. i bring down for u.. meet u in 5 mins? and she was like oh okay.. are you okay? you look very tired? then i say aiya, i tell u later.. meet u in 5 mins.. and i went up to get the donuts.. and i told queenie i was gonna eat.. and she say maybe she will pei me go TJC if vincent replies before 1.50pm... was like okay.. gave a donut to luxuan and queenie before going.. then downstairs... saw sophia.. and she pei-ed me... MS took like 20mins? before coming back out... then i was like trying to get some sleep while i ask sophia to watch out for me.. then she came out and sophia tapped me to hard! and i was like what?!! and she said MS was out la.. then MS was like thought u fainted.. and then she was like.. eating the donut.. she took 2 la..both apple cinnamon.. then she was like good luck for DSA later..say that i must talk properly and not talk so fast later.. she keep thinking that it is an interview not audition.. and i told her about the fight with my dad ytr.. and then she said maybe i should try get some rest now... LOL.. then queenie came and we left... queenie took another donut...then we walked to the busstop... and went TJC.. bus 31! omg, we miss the stop and had to walk... but okay la.. not that far..

then at TJC.. was looking for the room and we didnt dare ask the ppl.. and when we finally asked.. the person was like she dunno... so...... then we asked another guy and he brought us there.. and outside the room.. i heard the jiang jun ling song.. but the slow version la..was like huh? then thought it was the tjco ppl playing but when i went in.. this SAC person was playing it.. and her fren was beside her..then queenie came in after i started practicing.. the 2 SAC ppl was like talking about me.. say i definitely play better than her then say she know queenie.. then after that i saw vincent ooi... and soon, had to go out for them to prepare for the audition.. and ask khangleng to help me tune abit the yangqin.. then outside, i ate my donut...and talked to the SAC ppl... and vincent was the 1st to go.. he was playing this song that had to hit the zhongruan one.. then after he came out.. he say the conductor commented on his playing that it was lousy.. then i was like huh? u lousy then i what? then i grew scared.. wasnt scare at 1st 1 lor.. then he told me some of the questions.. then the SAC girl went in.. her name's geraldine... then she came out and told me some of the questions and said she was so happy she didnt play until the note "khiang".. she told me some question too.. realised she doesnt have any grade too..

then my turn.. went in and sat down...played... i actually play until a few notes " khiang".. was like omg..then calm down abit.. and after my playing i thought the conductor was gonna say my playing was lousy.. and he was like not bad not bad.. and i was damn happy.. then he ask me questions...

C: do u know how to play other instruments?
Me:yes, i was in pipa before switching to yangqin
C: oh okay, how long were u in pipa?
Me:erm,1 month
C:okay. whose your yangqin teacher?
Me:erm, our school right. dont have a particular teacher for yangqin.. there's only 1 teacher for each section and for TBY, it's mr goh yew guan.
C:mr goh.. oh! okay. so he teaches u all or u all practice with ur seniors?
Me:if we have any thing we dont know then we will ask him, if not, we will practice ourselves with seniors and juniors.
C:oh so, u all learn by yourself? ( seems rather impress)
Me: yup, this piece i learnt by myself...
C: oh okay. u know or TJ ah, let's say we only like a few YQ.. then if we let u play 2nd instrument like percussion, would u be okay with it?
Me:can ah, play before.
C: okay. so u have the erm, piano background right?
Me:yup...

then the committee's turn.....

Com:when can we know your mid-year results?
Me:erm, end of the month.
Com:okay. have u applied for any other JCs under this scheme?
Me:erm havent yet.
Com:are u intending to?
Me:maybe not becos i more of like want come TJ. ( omg, my eng sucks in this sentence)
Com:okay...

*pauses a while.

Com: can i know your L1R5...... last year?
Me: erm, 28... (paiseh)
Com: okay, you may go...

then went out and ran to queenie... she waws there waiting for me... and i told her and the SAC person what happen and they were like okay.. then i ate my donut before leaving.. and i walked to the busstop myself... called gang during that period of time but only yating answered... then called mum to tell her.. and msged MS.. and she was like congrats, i am happy for u too.. then went home... slacked around before YY called.. say that badminton refuses to take him cos his L1R5 too low.. he got 22 and the badminton coach say they only accept 30 plus 40 the ppl.. was like huh? then called queenie to tell her and bath and studied for music exam... and slept only at 12am again...

Thanks queenie for accompanying to TJC TODAY!! =)

Labels: All around my Idol, Life outside School, School

Sunday, May 18 3:14 PMl

Look at the stars. Feel the joy♥

Weds
Woke up at around 6.30am.. then uncle arthur fetched me to sch... today got chinese intensive.. it's like 2 hours of chinese? was in classroom A.. and got back chinese Mid-year.. omg u know in the morn i woke up then sleep for awhile and i had a dream.. i dreamt that my bao zhang i got 38 and gong han got 18.. and it was sort of accurate.. bao zhang i really got 38... gong han i at 1st got 18 but wrong words so minus 2 marks... become 16.. was so shock.. but sad la.. my bao zhang got 42 de.. but too many wrong words so become 38.. then my pp2 sucks la.. only got 42/70.. my zong he tian kong only got 4/10.. is like wah lau.. very lousy leh. but not bad.. oral got quite high.. 35/40.. then overall is 74.5... omg can.. 0.5 more marks.. but lucky... they round up for me.. so got 75... then went on with chinese lessons.. then normal sch day la... after sch didnt have lit..so went for CO.. geraldyne was there..

THURS
had chinese intensive... wah lau.. can die... did some compre.. but lucky lao shi brought us to the multi purpose room then got aircon...but i sat with gabby..in the morn went to collect the melbourne form..was waiting for saman at the basketball court cos she went for CCA leader meeting... then talked to mr kocher!! long time nvr see him sia.. he gave me a sweet and told me where he went ytr.. cos it was raining? ok.. then melbourne.. the itineary was nice... but after that mrs ang collected it back.. then after sch had SS...went through globalisation... and went for entrepreneur...then selected a few ppl for com and ask them out.. talked to them for a while.. about committee...then left.. and tuition.. did amaths.. then went home...

FRI
no mass ex today.. had a talk on DSA...wah, it's open le leh.but have to get approval from the sch 1st... then went for chinese intensive... i sat in front cos huixian not here..then me and liyin was talking la... then went back to class..recess yating took my wallet.. super pissed.. after recess had chinese again... then after that was lit.. mockingbird again..but miss S gave us abit of time to rest.. cos all of us too tired...after chinese... then she was asking us about what we have and everything.. then left. after sch stayed with saman, yating and yiusi for awhile..then we saw mrs sim put up DSA stuff.. then i left for piano.. and home after that...

Sat
today is another day i wont forget....went bugis in the morn... had yoshinoya.. and bought more food and homed...had maths tuition at 2pm...had just send 2 msges to liyin and camelia.. and received a msg from MS... she ask me to buy teens mag and then msg abit.. then went east point with mum..sam came and mum left.. went to buy teens magazine.. and got shock... imm close the mag after sam showed me where's the editor's note... i saw a pic and the editor's name.. Cheryl.... omg can.. bought the mag while still dont know what's the editor's note about.. and then called MS..but she nvr ans. so went for tuition.. and then at 5.55pm.. she called back..and then told her i will call her back.. then after tuition.. went to eat kembangan crab bee hoon with sam and her dad.. very big portion.. then went to sam's house.... called M back.. and we talkd for 41 mins...had a good chat though..very relaxing sort la... shall blog about the details later on.. but just in conclusion.. had a good time talking to her... cos i finally had my qns answered. and i feel that she's really nice and theres something in her that relly touches me.. cos whenever talking to her.. got the nice feeling.. relaxing type u know...aiya, dunno how to explain la.. just that she's very nice can alr.. and i feel sad for her too... cos of her dad... but nvm.. shall dedicate something to her on 25th june..

1. She said her dad pass away when nobody was at home.. ( her mum was out visiting her uncle who was sick too)
2. Her dad was sick before that alr... no appetite, fever, weak etc..
3. Her Sis just got the job as teens magazine the editor..
4.she says we maybe can help in the interview of chinese pop artistes then write articles and translate for her sis...
5. She says lit is a living subject. Cos by writing the award i am analysing her and talking about my friends is oso lit.
6. my wallet incident with YT
7. she's gonna do her assignment on vesak day.
8. wallet incidnt with Mrs Sim
9. started off by asking alot questions about the article and she says next time dont tell u anything cos u ask so many questions.
10. said about that time the dad i overheard something.
11. about the cupboard incident of hers. her parents fought and her mum threw away the cupboard full of her young time pics..
12. she says she is moved by her sis for writing the article..
13. she fail amaths all the way till prelim.. last 2 weeks before o levels she practice and did ten year series. and she managed to get B4! pro!
14. she's bringing her nephew to church tmw..
15. her nephew is primary 2 and niece is 2 years old.
16. says that dunno who ah say want go church nvr go.( replied saying that she say she not suppose to talk about religion stuff)
17. when asked if she stay at FG, she says no she stay somewhere near there.. and then saman was like we are like 10 km away. and she say 10 km is very far leh.
18. she says just ignore those who always as if she was present.
19. she says she didnt come the other day was cos she's not feling well and that feeling well can be mentally, physically and etc.. like maybe cos she was abit upset.. also call not feeling well.
20. ask me if gary cao was popular.

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Wednesday, April 30 11:52 PMl

Look at the stars. Feel the joy♥

I just wanted to make that apology. you didnt reply and i understand. you need the time to cool down. dont be too worked up. it's my fault yeah? if i hadnt say anything, nothing would have happen. so sorry. hope you are better now. you always told me to leave things in god's hands and the prob will finally be resolve. so now i am giving back what you have taught me to you... leave it in god's hands ok? feel the joy of heaven on earth yeah? i know you are a nice person. you are a great and significant person in my life. i appreciate every single thing from the day i met you till now, whether is it the good or the bad. and i definitely feel bad seeing you like that cos it's my fault. i really hope you'll be ok yeah?

CHEER UP MY DEAR ********.

I doubt you will be seeing this but this post is dedicated to you.. if you happen to read it, then i hope you will accept the apology. to end off, here's something my friend from YISS sent me recently. i read it the day where i told u i didnt really believe in God. somehow or rather, whenever i lose trust in god, there will always be something like dat to regain that trust and confidence. so i thought it'll be nice to share with you. enjoy.

God
Hello. Did you call me?
Me
Called you? No. Who is this?
God
This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.
Me
I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.
God
What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.
Me
Don't know. But I can't find free time. Life has become hectic. It's rush hour all the time.
God
Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.
Me
I understand. But I still can't figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.
God
Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.
Me
Tell me, why has life become complicated now?
God
Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.
Me
Why are we then constantly unhappy?
God
Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.
Me
But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
God
Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.
Me
But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty.
God
Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.
Me
If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?
God
Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer. With that experience their life become better not bitter.
Me
You mean to say such experience is useful?
God
Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.
Me
But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can't we be free from problems?
God
Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons (to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.
Me
Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading.
God
If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.
Me
Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?
God
Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing your road ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.
Me
In tough times, how do you stay motivated?
God
Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.
Me
What surprises you about people?
God
When they suffer they ask, 'why me?' When they prosper, they never ask 'Why me'. Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.
Me
Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I can't get the answer.
God
Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be.Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.
Me
How can I get the best out of life?
God
Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence.Prepare for the future without fear.
Me
One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.
God
There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.
Me
Thank you for this wonderful chat.
God
Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live. 'Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that took our breath away!'

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Thursday, March 13 6:28 PMl

Look at the stars. Feel the joy♥

KCCO-VSCO CAMP!

since it's the holidays, i shall stop the daily message for my idol as well as night...nothing much to say u see....

Labels: All around my Idol

Wednesday, March 12 11:26 AMl

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WHEE..MY 100TH POST! HAHA

Alot of you keep wondering whose the idol mentioned in my blog. well, i said i ain't gonna reveal who is she right. i thought blog are actually personal diaries so why do u all want to know whose the idol i am talking about so much? although it's open to public, doesnt means to have to go into other ppl's stuff right? i mean i blog about it becos i take it as a online book of memories.. to track what happen before.. and so, why do u all want to know who is she.. i think letting a few of my friends know is enough and i dont need everybody to know and help me spread this information about whose my idol and stuff.

SO, since all of u like to guess whose the ppl i mention on my blog right, i shall let u all do it. i am introducing another person on my blog. her name's night.. becos huixian gave me a new nickname: morning(am) cos my initials is actually AM.. so now i m gonna introduce PM which stands for night to all of u. I am sure all of u will have a happy time guessing..Aren't u glad that i am providing things for u to do during your free time? slowly guess ba.. maybe one day after i graduate, i might reveal who this 2ppl is..and as usual, i will post daily messages to this 2 ppl with the only difference that i will alternate the messages.. like one day for night, and the next day for idol.

A few things to clarify:

1) Please stop asking my friends whose the idol or night mentioned on my blog. Although i tell them about it sometimes, they dont know much about them.. becos as i have said, it's between me and idol/night and there's nothing to do with my friends. Asking them is just a waste of your time only becos firstly, they dont really know much who are there(or some of them may not know at all) and 2ndly, they wont reveal. So stop wasting your time.

2) i know u all think that idol is actually FT.. but let me ask u a qn, why would i mention both idol and FT together if it's the same person? i know in the stories of FT and idol, there are some links but do u think it's the same person? Can't there be conincidence?

3) Please stop asking me for FT's number. firstly, do u think i have FT's number?
2ndly, even if i have, i will not give becos i am not allowed to. it's not because i am selfish to want the number to myself or what but if u have paid attention during the 1st lesson with FT this year, she said she didnt want too many ppl to know her number. and so, i am not allowed to give.
No matter how urgent the thing is, i can only help pass the message to her but not give u her number. becos if i were to give u, it will be considered as " breaking a sch rule". So, if really, it's very urgent, u can leave me a sms to pass to her but not ask me for her number. I will not entertain ppl asking me for her number.

i know by posting this, there will be ppl saying i am selfish and stuff and i am sure there will be rumours going around soon but hey, let me tell u this first if u are considering of spreading some rumours about this to other ppl:
Why not u give me YOUR number and i help u spread to all the students in the sch? dont u think that will be fun to have ppl intruding into YOUR privacy? GET-A-LIFE if u still consider doing it and just hope that GOD will bless you.

Daily message to idol:
i guess if u read the above, you will kind of know what had happened but just treat it that nothing happen ok? cos it's a very small matter. and u shall know who is night soon. heh.=)

Labels: All around my Idol

Saturday, March 8 9:07 PMl

Look at the stars. Feel the joy♥

Shall summarize it into point form cos alot of things.

Today events:

1) reached sch around 8.55am and met liyin
2) walked around the sec4 level to see see look look. saw our class.
3) walked the sec3 level and saw saman and yating
4) went up to the hall and saw yiusi.. stayed for the talk by principal.
5) den left and went to our class.
6) helped at the signing in part and my mum came early.
7) had mtps with ft. wasnt that bad cos at least i am not a bad student afterall
8) helped co-ft sort out the things for the girls
9) parents saw bio teacher and talked for quite awhile
10) samantha cried. wanted to go after her but dunno where is she
11) decided to stay and help for the rest of the day.
12) bio teacher talked to me for v long about the class.
13) den got cut of by students so i went back in at my signing in counter
14) read AMSND while helping cos not nobody else came for awhile.
15) last student came and i stacked back all the chairs in the classroom
16) talked to bio teacher again and got lots of ideas for YES-NEC. i just think she is SO cool.
17) co-ft asked me a weird qn. i liked to help so much how come nvr continue being prefect? stunned by the qn
18) den stacked back all the chairs outside into the classroom.
19) packed the classroom abit. closed windows.
20) ft and co-ft hugged! so cool that scene.. den co-ft kept saying she was not much of a help. like qing jie gong ren like dat.
21) we all left! walked with FT downstairs and she was on the phone.
22) then left and waited for idol at the security guard there

THAT'S THE PART ABOUT MTPS! NOW, THE AFTER PART:

1) Was at the security guard there waiting for idol and managed to talk to ppl like miss T and miss S.. miss S act know about what happen for music and she said i was a guai student and to work hard.
2) idol came and left sch for parkway.
3) on the bus, we were not sitting together cos too many ppl. and so was msging yiusi.
4) Den at parkway there, idol's bf suddenly appeared behind us. only knew when i heard somebody said boring.
5) went info counter to meet parents 1st cos my sis said she had something to ask me.
6) den went mos burger to eat.. her bf treated me for lunch.. AGAIN. so paiseh lah
7) den we talked and ate.
8) Idol's rice burger was too hard and she only went to changed it after eating half of it.. cool right. wahaha.
9) den we continued talking while i was so call "forced" to eat fried prawns!
10) talk for awhile more before leaving for the toilet.
11) took pics ( random shots with random poses!) and bye-bye! haha..
12) met bro and waited for parents to fetched us.
13) talked on the phone with yiusi wihle waiting.
14) home-d. bathed and went for chem tuition.

i dropped 2 popiah that i just bought from cheers( still hot 1 somemore) and i spilled the bowl of fish beehoon at ms chan's house! so sorry! there's something wrong with me today. i came home, msg-ed idol thanking her for today and i cut my leg while too anxious to get my phone! suay sia. there's seriously something wrong with me today!

CONVERSATION OF OURS WHILE EATING:
1) I dont eat prawns except tempura(by me) = i take coke but not soft drinks.(by the bf)
2) i said solar panel lights(supposedly lights functioned by solar panels) bf was like huh?
3) MOE does not allow teachers to talk about religions to students cos singapore is a multi-religious country.
4) idol's bf's friend will have saliva flowing out when he take seafood yet he still continue taking seafood.
5) i like sotong,cuttlefish, squids and was said to look like one by the bf.
6) each of us were supposed to eat 5 fried prawns each but i ate only 4 cos i dont like prawns! and idol's bf ate the last one for me.
7) when i was talking to idol, i thought the bf looked bored and so i asked him if he was and idol's bf said no cos he cannot multi-task like us. we are special.
8) was sending idol pics and she was looking at my other pics without me knowing.
9) the two of them told me alot about GOD and it was qutie enlightening cos i wasnt into religion u know. but idol was too tired to continue so the bf continued it.
10) was talking about how lonely LS was in class and about KY and the bf and her blog.
11) talking about afterlife and civilisation. (was saying if only civilisation didnt occur but idol said there had to be some form of evolution what)
12) talking about growing up too. how next time will be when parents dun support me anymore. and what if i dun earn much.
13) talking about capturing memories. like i cannot remb childhood memories and that she cant too. and her bf said that after secondary will be able to remb more.
14) idol's bf was talking about my hp as usual. like my phone cant store msges in the memory card which is so not true.
15) comparing how many msges we save in our phones. he went like u know how many msges she saves in her phone. 200+.and i was like.. u know how many i save? 2000+. lol..and he said my phone will lag.
16) he said why nvr save msges in memory card den. and i was like cos memory card going to be full alr. and he was like buy 2 GB 1 lah. was like no point cos can save in com and waste money only.
17) ask him why he is in black and white again. like always in red, black or whilte one. adn he said cos i always see him or weekkends right? was like eh ya, actually sch holidays lah.
18) ask idol there's always one qn alot ppl has always been asking u but u have never ans directly and she knew what i was gonna ask! haha. and she said she didnt want to ans lah. wait till we graduate then we know. was like how m i suppose to know when i graduate? and she said keep in touch!
19) forgot what was i saying that the bf replied and i was like not funny and he went m i laughing? and so i said fine, not amazing. and he went do i look amazed? lol.
20) idol said she used to believe in many religions and tried to say that she can control her temper and stuff but sooner or later she still couldnt until she went into christanity.
21) the ten commandements are things that everybody wont be able to follow because of temptations becos of adam.
22) idol oso said if u believe in buddhismm there's still heaven and hell. becos one is believe to be reincarnated until he or she reaches enlightenment so reincarnation will bring suffering to u on earth and isnt that a form of hell oso?
23) sweet= thoughtful, caring, helpful while thoughtful is just thoughtful said by idol.
24) while leaving mos burger, idol told her bf that there's a guy that looks like MSBK! haha.
25) ask idol's bf so is she sweet to u. and he said yes VERY! haha.
26) idol was very tired(closing her eyes when talking) and so they took turns talking to me.heh.
27) i said i was very wild in pri sch like dont obey instructions of teachers and breaking sch rules. and the bf was like so that is considered wild? and so u mean now u now better ah?
28) was saying how a teacher always pick on me since sec1 and that sec1 dat time i was not that guai oso but in the end still become prefect. idol said it's a snowball reaction/ chain of reaction
29) idol ask if i know who chose be as prefect. was like ya. name 3 ppl and the bf was like, u mean u were a prefect last time? was like ya, trainee prefect only. on probation for 6 months.
30) idol ask about the award thing, did i send in anot and whether i typed it or write. was like hand-written lah. and she was like then u dont have a copy for me to read? was like everything i write got draft one lah. and the bf went like you wrote it? can read one anot? was like ya, my handwriting is neat one ok. and idol was like ya, very neat. and told her if u want see my ugliest handwriting right, next time must see my lit file, alot of my notes the handwriting cannot read 1.
31) i took out a book from my bag to show her my handwriting! haha. my AMSND!
32) the bf said i was unique cos my personality in public and in private is oso D!
33) they say that DISC is always changing but i think that it suits me lah.

i think that the bf is quite a cool and funny person lah. not as bad as i thought he used to be. Sorry! haha. he's a nice guy in fact.

3 descriptive words of him:
1) Cool
2) funny
3) nice

Labels: All around my Idol, Life outside School, School

4:44 PMl

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OMG, today is a super cool day lah.. didnt expect meet-the -parents-session to be so freaking fun! talked to alot of ppl today.. will blog about it later! haha. cos going for chem tuition le.=)

Daily Message to idol:
THANKS LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS FOR TODAY! and to ur bf too! haha.

Labels: All around my Idol, Life outside School

Thursday, March 6 6:38 PMl

Look at the stars. Feel the joy♥

today daphne asked me all of a sudden if i went to tell FT about them spreading rumours about me? was like huh? since when? and since when did u spread rumours about me? lol. den help to collect eng files(cos Dorra not here) and report books... so irritating cos ppl hand in one by one? then have to bring it down so many times.. den we stuffed FT's pigeon hole till there's no space.. left it on the floor, tried calling he ext but she nvr ans.. den 5 mins later when we went back, all the files gone! was like huh? cool eh.. den FT came to class and she was like she brought it up. haha.. fast eh.. den no maths at all.. cos clear classroom. den our class like book store! cos we arranged the books at the side and there was so many! so can open bookstore le! lol.. helped aisyah get the chairs and heidi in her bio online assignment then went to staffroom. to put the eng file and report books AGAIN! sian lah.. den saw FT and she was like woohoo. issit gonna drop? if gonne drop den put it more in ba.. then left..in the canteen saw idol wor.. and she was like u still feel any pain anot? was like ya when i run and she was like so tmw how? was like what how? still need to run right.. and she was like continue running? competive somemore? was like ya.. cannot waste the effort of going to the gym. haha..den had to go for rehearsal. CO rehearsal was quite fun only for the Canon-in-D... sian lah.. didnt know that Miss S was overall in charge for BMW concert. den keep playing first love.. and then when clearing stage, nobody help me carry YQ again.. so carried myself.. cool right.. den miss S was like backstage blocking me.. sian lah.. den went for entrp for 5mins and to foyer.. talked to elizabeth and miss Tan.. den went back for entrp.. talked about YES-NEC new idea! recycle food! mrs G's idea.. den entrp ended. just realise our new trainer's son is bryan cheng! u know the kid actor? haha. den stayed in foyer with samantha and yating.. saw idol again.. and was like talking to her..about whether i should drop lit and hist anot..den left. samantha's dad fetched me home! thanks! haha.

Daily message to idol:
thanks alot again. you're a very caring person wor.! see ya at bedok reservoir for fun and fitness day tmw! take pics! haha =)

Labels: All around my Idol, School

Wednesday, March 5 7:22 PMl

Look at the stars. Feel the joy♥

today had a weird day. had a chance to talk to idol.den she was saying that she didnt have time to respond to my card and that my illustrations was good.was like hmm, but my art sucks? lol. then she say she know me and YS had arguements weeks back and ask if we were ok alr.. was like ya, how u know? hehe. den she was like why u sit alone during ure lit lesson? cos virina wants to sit with YS? that's about it. today whenever i run too fast or like even run slower, the pain comes back! but for awhile only...den had to chase after my idol so ran quite a bit. den we were quite funny cos i was holding a stack of report books supposedly for FT. and she was holding it partially when i wanted to take mine out and the whole thing sank.. and lucky, my reaction was fast and i caught it! lol. den went for CO.. playing first love, rhythm of the rain and canon-in-D for BMW! cool! haha.

Daily Message for idol:
thanks for the compliments about my art but it really sucked i guess..haha. only have confidence for music and not art! Thanks about concerning me anyway. about the pain? thanks alot! =)

Labels: All around my Idol, School

Tuesday, March 4 6:51 PMl

Look at the stars. Feel the joy♥

today i thought about quite abit of stuff. esp during Biology lessons. miss Tan said that we ppl are ignorant cos when we see ppl that have some handicap here and there, we laugh and them and avoid them. it's like when we see ppl with down syndrome, we laugh at them. just how ignorant we are? and when she said that, i thought, how ignorant are we as KC students. the case where FT walk out of class aft scolding us appeared in my mind.

just how ignorant are we? just by saying a word sorry is so difficult? no matter is it X fault in being rude to FT or is it the class fault, we should just apologise to her as 1 class right? where's all the class spirit? we are SUPPOSE to be ONE CLASS. yes we have cliques but we should all unite together and make it a good class and good year so that when we graduate in 8 months time, when we look back, there will be good memories and not bad memories like this right? furthermore, the class oso had fault too. if we didnt argue back about why we need to give constructive feedback, would all this have happen? so it's partially the class fault too. so shouldnt we all just apologise 2gether? just becos each one of us is afraid that we will be called "sucking up" to FT, nobody dares to go forward to her and apologise to her or at least just comfort her that day she walked away. Most of you were just SO happy. what's this? being called "sucking up" to her isnt a big deal u know? i have been called so many times and so what? i still continue doing what is right( which is wrong to u all i supposed). it's just remarks from ppl. and the ppl who give these remarks, if they think they are so great to criticise other ppl as sucker-ups or suckers, then why dont they try "sucking" up themselves and go through the feeling of being called a suck-up? if u went through it,after a while, u will get used to it and it's not really a bother anymore. cos u will feel that those ppl are just suckers themselves cos they dont dare to go and do what is right. so just stand up for what is right. unless u tell me that apologising to her is a wrong thing to do? but whatever it is, i feel that we should apologise as 1 class. cos we are A class and not many class.

Want to do it, Do it together.

DAILY Message to idol:

helping you is my pleasure. it's not much actually =)

Labels: All around my Idol, School

Monday, March 3 7:32 PMl

Look at the stars. Feel the joy♥

The teachers in the school are so freaking irritating. Scolding to them is like a piece of shit i tell you. Kenna scolded by Mr S...... He threw our music stuff at us somemore...... what type of teacher is this huh? teacher can anyhow throw things at us one meh.. i wanna complain! den even call us parents somemore and say what.. next time this happen, i m gonna call all your teachers, FT, CCA Teacher, Subject teacher to sit in one big circle in front of me to hear what i have got to say of you 2. what's his prob man.. threatening dont work on us! ugly then ugly lah.. we 2 oso been through discipline cases what.. what's the diff with one more? ok, i shall not complain anymore in case any teacher sees this.

I gave a card to idol today and i have decided that every time i blog from today 3rd March onwards, i will leave a short message for my idol. then when i look back after i graduate 8 months later.. i will know what happen.

and OMG, i typed this really long message talking about the ppl in KC.. and suppose to send to samantha but i send wrongly! i send to my idol sia..die lah.. inside got alot things about her one... and she got no reaction to it! nvr reply after i said it was a wrong msg. see how tmw ba.

Daily Message to idol:
i didnt mean to talk about those stuff but i was just really annoyed by the classmates, the teachers and the ppl in KC. i was just using examples of yours, cos at that point in time, i could only think of those examples. but hey, dont u agree with me? all the examples about self-centerness and stuff. i just couldnt really take it anymore cos of the selfishness of the ppl. but i guess everything will be okay soon? my favorite line:

Everything's got a way out.

can't wait till this friday, 2.4KM and dragonboat race, then we can take photos again! heh.

Labels: All around my Idol, School

Saturday, March 1 11:55 AMl

Look at the stars. Feel the joy♥

ytr night when i was about to slp.. was actually msgin my idol. and the whole convo was just so saddening.. talking abt what happen 2 days before u know..the details i m not gonna put here cos i dun want to like spread the news ard... u know internet is a v good way of spreading news lah...... den we msg until 12.45am.... quite tired and sleepy while waiting for her to reply but after that, was v awake.. haha.. maybe cos after that she reply v fast and my hands just cant stop typing..i nearly got "killed" by her qns.. i dunno should ans anot.. is like i ans, i helping her then party 1 later not happy.. then if i help party 1 and not tell her, it's like helping the wrong.. so i dunno what to do leh..den she keep thinking i siding party 1 which is not true.. i not siding anybody.. i m just sitting on the fence... and i abit bu shuang what.. so i msg ehr and say if i siding party 1 i will still msg u and trying to cheer u up meh? den i think after that she kind of believe me ba... but in the end, i think she know what happen lah.. although i didnt say anything.. but nvm... everything's got a way out lah.. hope everything will be cleared soon.. and i was awake right, so she was like sorry... for the late reply. u should try abd get some slp..and i replied saying it's ok lah.. i broke my record leh.. i have been lying in my bed for 2 hrs+ without slping! and she reply:" so cute la you".. was like huh?! sweet alr weird enough alr... still want add cute? Ahhh! den we all went to slp alr.

Msg to idol:
gonna repeat but it's ok! everything's got a way out.. my fav line man.. haha.. and ya.. u taught me to feel the joy of heaven on earth... and see, i dedicated this blog to u leh.. everything has got to do with that line u taught me. so u cannot forget what u taught me ah...must be happy happy all the way..u sad, angry or whatever bad emotions,can feel it one leh.. den make me worry only.. haha.. sounds weird lah.. but i worry meaning cos that time i was down, u worry for me mah.. so now u like dat, i will also have the same natural reaction right..i meant it that way.. anyway, whatever obstacles that is gonna come along the way for the remaining 8 months.. i will conquer it and so will u! heh...then we can all conquer it together..nothing's impossible! and the most impossible line:

it's better to have loved and lost than to not love at all.

i changed it to my way.

it's better to have known and hurt each other than to have not known at all.

i definitely nvr regretted knowing u.. and i will nvr... i believe it's God's will that we have known each other.....how we are able to help each other along the way on the journey of life. and this 2 months, it's has been a supercalifragilistic-expialidocious journey despite the downs. have not forgotten it and i dont think i will for the rest of my life. SMILEZ and HUGZ! i will always be there for you no matter what because you have been there for me whenever i needed help. thanks alot and alot for this supercalifragilistic-expialidocious journey and fanstatic memories in my teenage life. May god bless!

Labels: All around my Idol

Friday, February 29 11:08 PMl

Look at the stars. Feel the joy♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL LEAP YEAR BABIES! HAHA
TODAY IS LIKE LEAP YEAR. ONCE IN EVERY 4 YEARS SO HOW CAN I NOT BLOG? I BETTER BLOG NOW IN CASE MY BLOG DONT SURVIVE TILL 4 YEARS LATER!

Idol was not say v happy ytr too..and i dunno what to say.. just msg-ed her at night and she just said something i felt touched reading it.. she said she was just thinking that she will miss me after i gradute. that line was just nice i guess. nobody had actually said that to me before.. not even my bestest friends..den she also said that i have made her experience here much sweeter. i am always link with the word sweet... haha.. which is so eee-yer. but nvm, at least it's good that somebody actually is praising me. lol..

today didnt have morn ex... had bio instead.. then morn assembly was in class but FT didnt come up.. and the class started saying she's scared or what.. but nvm.. den ran 3km.. without stopping! haha.. so proud of myself.. den had chinese chengyu test.. didnt really study cos was writing the final part of the president's award essay.. and i finished it! mailed it alr.. den had lit.. had to write this essay with 2 parts..but managed t0 do 1 only.. den FT was going ard lah.. and she was like do we all take hist? was like ya.. just a funny convo i guess.. cos she said why we take hist? and me and virina went, why we cannot take hist.. lol.. den after that had CO after sch... played feng nian ji! yay! it's nice lah. den after that we played 1st love and canon-in-D.. omg.. we are playing canon-in-d for BMW.. and i m so gonna die.. the solo part.. haii.. nvm.. i will succeed! my idol says i can means can! hehe. den stayed with elizabeth for awhile.. she ah.. dunno what to say oso.. counsellor called her to go see her then she say she scared and that counselling it's for ppl with prob but i dun have what.. so nvr go.. then left for parkway for dinner.. a last min thing lah.. then came home and practice piano..then did bio online test.. highest score is 39/40! haha..

Labels: All around my Idol, School

Sunday, February 24 6:36 PMl

Look at the stars. Feel the joy♥

Changed my blog skin and blog link. means i changed the whole thing lah. reason was because i was very inspired by my idol. after what happen in school on fri and what she told me before. Feeling the joy of heaven on earth is what she told me. i had not been able to figure out what it means as i didnt go through it. But now, i am going through it and i finally know what she means. and so, i am gonna post this again. i want you all readers to know that this idol of mine, changed my life somehow or rather and i am thankful for it.

the feeling of her caring for me and cheering up for on fri is really nice and touching. this 2 months.. we have been cheering up each other and helping each other in many many ways.. and i believe when i leave KC, all these will be so unforgettable..the ways we helped each other are all so small but yet when added up together, it's so big.. and the note that she gave me on fri, although it's ugly, cos it's just black and white and written in a short period of time.. it's just has this great impact on me.. the feeling was just so touching..how i wished i will nvr graduate from KC.. furthermore, she got me to see through alot of things... i used to be very negative in many ways.. and becos of her existence, she taught me to rest in God and know that he loves me and believe in myself...now i m positive. i even console other ppl now and when consoling other ppl, i find it difficult but yet i feel the joy of helping ppl.. just like what she said.. she feel heaven on earth..

I understand that now.. these 2 months i think is one of the most happy memories in my 4 years in KC..yiusi they all always think to listen to her and believe in God sounds weird and dont take that seriously but i do.. and i found happiness among the ppl around me...i dunno why but i will just keep everything that she tells me in my heart.. and i realised that it actually cn be used in one way or another in other things.

The thing i m most glad about is that, our paths actually crossed and we were destined/fated to know each other..how many ppl actually are destined to meet their friends and ppl ard them? alot i know but yet they do not treasure it.. but i think that i m gonna start right now and treasure this good "buddy" of mine... becos i m not going to be the alina in the past, where friends leave me becos i dun treasure them. i m going to, Now. may god bless me and this "buddy" of mine to not fall out and continue helping and cheering each other up all the way. i've found the true light because of you, your inspiring words and stuff.. where would i be now if not becuase of you. i will still be the old alina but no, i m gonna changed for the better and i know how now.

And to you: Yes, those who scold me, care about me(dun translate from chinese next time, sounds wrong) i thank you a million and million. no words can speak my thoughts now. the feeling is just great. YES, i feel the joy of heaven on earth. Happiness surrounds me. may god bless. =)

whatever about God and etc which she has taught me or told me, i am gonna make a list out of it. I am gonna keep it in memory of my sec 4 life in KC.

Labels: All around my Idol

Saturday, February 23 1:13 PMl

Look at the stars. Feel the joy♥

the feeling of her caring for me and cheering up for me ytr is really nice and touching. this 2 months.. we have been cheering up each other and helping each other in many many ways.. and i believe when i leave KC, all these will be so unforgettable..the ways we helped each other are all so small but yet when added up together, it's so big.. and the note that she gave me ytr, although it's ugly, cos it's just black and white and written in a short period of time.. it's just has this great impact on me.. the feeling was just so touching..how i wished i will nvr graduate from KC.. furthermore, she got me to see through alot of things... i used to be very negative in many ways.. and becos of her existence, she taught me to rest in God and know that he loves me and believe in myself...now i m positive. i even console other ppl now and when consoling other ppl, i find it difficult but yet i feel the joy of helping ppl.. just like what she said.. she feel heaven on earth.. i think i understand that now..

these 2 months i think is one of the most happy memories in my 4 years in KC..my friends they all always think to listen to her and believe in God sounds weird and dont take that seriously but i do.. and i found happiness among the ppl around me...i dunno why but i will just keep everything that she tells me in my heart.. and i realised that it actually cn be used in one way or another in other things.

The thing i m most glad about is that, our paths actually crossed and we were destined/fated to know each other..how many ppl actually are destined to meet their friends and ppl ard them? alot i know but yet they do not treasure it.. but i think that i m gonna start right now and treasure this good "buddy" of mine... becos i m not going to be the alina in the past, where friends leave me becos i dun treasure them. i m going to, Now. may god bless me and this "buddy" of mine to not fall out and continue helping and cheering each other up all the way. i've found the true light because of you, your inspiring words and stuff.. where would i be now if not becuase of you. i will still be the old alina but no, i m gonna changed for the better and i know how now.

And to you: Yes, those who scold me, care about me(dun translate from chinese next time, sounds wrong) i thank you a million and million. no words can speak my thoughts now. the feeling is just great. YES, i feel heaven on earth. may god bless.

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Sunday, February 10 3:02 PMl

Look at the stars. Feel the joy♥

if only there was something dat could erase all the bad memories.. how ft scolded me.. what happen in the whole of jan will always flash back in my mind.FT: if you ever see this, which most prob u wont, i just feel so bad about not listening to u dat day making u shout at me.. even if u say u have forgotten and u dont condemn me, it's always in my mind.

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Tuesday, January 29 6:41 PMl

Look at the stars. Feel the joy♥

i m like damn regretful of what i did ytr.. 1stly, ft ask me about whether i used hp in sch anot and i was like ya.. cos anne wen to complain.. and she said she wanted me and anne to sit down together to talk cos got 2 diff stories..den i didnt want. and was pretty pissed with trusting and stuff.. so got attitude lah,.. with my character...cried for 5 mins during PC..after sch, i looked for her cos she asked me to and i was like can u dun force me to do something i dun wanna do. and she just flared.. saying fine dun do it den.. and left.. and i was like omg.. den after dat, suppose to go music alr.. i felt like apologising cos it's all cos i didnt want to listen? so i just called her ext in the toilet with queenie.. but nobody answered.. then i called her hp and suddenly ms L ans.. and she was like ms S is currently unavailable..but she didnt know i heard this..
msL: what do i say?
msS: just say i not avaliable lah.
msL: ok, hi, ms S is currently unavailable

it was pretty obvious she didnt wanted to ans lah.. so me and queenie was like nvm... and i msged a apology to her half an hr later risking of my phone being consficated by mr S...and we were late for music for half an hr cos i wanted to apologise..den i thought she didnt reply cos i didnt receive anything all the way till 7pm.. something told me to restart my phone and aft i restart, i received like 3 msges? all sent at 4pm? and i was like omg? cos she actually replied a min later.. aft music, i went to look for Y and i talked to her.. and she advised me and stuff and talked about sec2 life and the past.. it's called R.T.P u know.. then her dad came and she left, so did i.. den i replied ms S at about 7 and i thought she didnt reply again.. until at 830 when i called L to ask about tm presentation, she asked me, didnt u recieve my msg just now. the presentation is cancelled.. and i was like huh? since when? so i took my phone and restarted it again.. and really, there were 4 msges man.. and she replied 15 mins after my last msg.. so listend to L talked on the phone while replying her.. and was really emo alr...so i think she could sense it in one of the later msges, she said. i'm not angry with u. just think that we have misunderstanding each other. and i didnt reply of course.. cos i was playing the piano and i didnt know what to reply.. n shortly, 2 mins later.. another msg came in which said. you know i can never stay angry wit you so dont keep thinking ok. and i was like ok.. and thats the end..
the continuation of the story, which is what happenned in sch today, shall blog later or tmw.. cos now need go for tuition soon!

today, i tried avoiding her cos i really dunno what to do.. it's like there's a barrier between both of us? den after eng, i tried to rush out and nobody wanted to let me go except huixian.. so she nvr talk to me lah.. dem after lit, she stop me while i was going out.. den say that she want talk to me but i ddint wanted to.. called for yiusi but cos she having headache, she couldnt help lah.. so just ask her carry my books upstairs.. den talk lah..den she ask me qns and i just ans them..moral of the whole convo, must be professional. between work and outside of work.. and she said she nominated me as student of the month. and i was like no.. can u take back ur nomination.. she went, dun questioned my decision ok.so nvm lor.. den she say what happen. and i was like which thing u referring to.. she said ytr.. and i was like which incident of ytr? morn afternn or night? and she was like night.. and i was like eh, nothing lor.. just like dat.. emo lah.. den she said dat anything say here dun later 1 whole lot of sms come in.. den i was like ok.den she ask me write report and hand in tmw.. and she said dun need to be afraid if not it's like as though u have a guilty conscience..
miss S: i know we have a outside class relationship.. like a buddy-buddy type of realtionship.but when it comes to this type of things, we have to be professional
den she said that it's not that she didnt wanted to ans the phone.. it's dat they were having meeting den miss L wanted to ans for her for the fun of it.. would u believe? i m not sure though. but nvm.den i explain to her and she explain to me.. end of story.

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